Wrong sensing..way wrong

Men always wish to be womens' first love;
Women always wish to be mens' last romance

Don't know why today I keep on having bad feeling..
Stupid instinct aka stupid thinking kicks in again >
What's wrong me!?
T.T
I feeling that Nicholas is just wanting me continue love him so that will have a stupid moronic girl after him..
That's what my instinct telling me..
But there's a small voice in my heart that telling me that he just busy studying..
But it's just a tiny small voice which easy to be influenced by my stupid loud instinct that always wrong yet I will do something stupid because of it!!!!!
But then this time I ignored it eventhough it is annoying..!
I didn't do anything other then stop finding him...
Trying to create as much gap as I could!!!