Yeah! Tomorrow i going to Cameron Highland...
The last i go is to attend a wedding...that time freakin cold...
I hope this time would be the same...
This week tuition got double class...@..@
5 hours per day, can you guys imagine that!?
Friday, August 28, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Trustin Myself
All this while, i thought i were a barrier for nicholas...
Example, when he wants to study...i will be there sms him and distract him...
But everytime i told him my feelings...he will say that it is his blithe...
Because i find him means i care him and love him...
To have a girlfriend that care him alot is a kind of happiness...
But i'm stupid...i don't believe that...i always thinks that he said it because he don't want to hurt my feelings....
Then recently my daddy ( wai yin ) told me that if his gf always find him...it is his blithe...
Once he said it...it struck my mind that nicholas used to told me that...
I feel horrible of myself...i feel myself stupid...
I feel i very unreasonable towards him...but yet he still treat me that good...( apart of not spending time with me )
I want to have another change to repay him back...but do i have the chance and could i do it??
Today nicholas sms-ed me...
He told me that his final exam is coming soon ( after PMR )
He said he need to study...hope i could understand him if he not able to reply me...
I feel that this is a time, a chance to repay my guilt...
I want to be a good girlfriend to him....i want to be his happiness...
I don't want to be his shallowness, his saddess...
After breaking up with nicholas...
I feel that i have one thing with him...sort of a string that pulling me towards him...or attract me to him...
It didn't make me sad but it make me feel happy because he love me...
I feel that i have his love is the best thing i ever had...
I don't know if there a word that can explain my feeling now....
And each and every minute passes...i will think of him and miss him alot..
The love that i have toward him is different then what i have with Fong Rong...
It can't be discribed...
This love is not pain nor sweet...It brings a weird feeling, a new feeling to me....
And i'm glad that i could experienced it....
I don't know whether that i love nicholas alot or not...
But i just sure that my love toward nicholas could be compare to my love toward Fong Rong...
Is this call soulmates??or true love??
Example, when he wants to study...i will be there sms him and distract him...
But everytime i told him my feelings...he will say that it is his blithe...
Because i find him means i care him and love him...
To have a girlfriend that care him alot is a kind of happiness...
But i'm stupid...i don't believe that...i always thinks that he said it because he don't want to hurt my feelings....
Then recently my daddy ( wai yin ) told me that if his gf always find him...it is his blithe...
Once he said it...it struck my mind that nicholas used to told me that...
I feel horrible of myself...i feel myself stupid...
I feel i very unreasonable towards him...but yet he still treat me that good...( apart of not spending time with me )
I want to have another change to repay him back...but do i have the chance and could i do it??
Today nicholas sms-ed me...
He told me that his final exam is coming soon ( after PMR )
He said he need to study...hope i could understand him if he not able to reply me...
I feel that this is a time, a chance to repay my guilt...
I want to be a good girlfriend to him....i want to be his happiness...
I don't want to be his shallowness, his saddess...
After breaking up with nicholas...
I feel that i have one thing with him...sort of a string that pulling me towards him...or attract me to him...
It didn't make me sad but it make me feel happy because he love me...
I feel that i have his love is the best thing i ever had...
I don't know if there a word that can explain my feeling now....
And each and every minute passes...i will think of him and miss him alot..
The love that i have toward him is different then what i have with Fong Rong...
It can't be discribed...
This love is not pain nor sweet...It brings a weird feeling, a new feeling to me....
And i'm glad that i could experienced it....
I don't know whether that i love nicholas alot or not...
But i just sure that my love toward nicholas could be compare to my love toward Fong Rong...
Is this call soulmates??or true love??
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