~Reminisces~

I look at my computer, no mail.

I look at my phone, no ring.

I look at my door, no knock.

Every hour you don't send me an email,

every minute you don't call me,

every second you're not by my side,

life becomes intolerable,

life becomes unbearable,

my life ends......

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This is how I feel...

everyday when I sees my phone, there is msg..but is not from HIM...

I feels so down, I always wonder...

Did HE ever thinks of me or at least miss me??

I want to know the answer, yet I am afraid to know the answer...

But I didn't end my life because of this..

I learn how to immune to it...

Day by day, my expectation getting lesser and lesser...

The image in my mind getting more and more blur...

Its like HE is starting to dissolve....

HE no longer in my life...

Its like HE is just my imagination...and is time to be awake......

But I'm scare to forget him...but, if i don't... day by day, I will hurt...

So how? I don't know...i leave to the GOD...

If faith destined me to forget him.... I can't do anything other then following it....

If faith destined me and him together, it would be a happy ending for me...

But usually happy endings, only happens in fairytales....

Today I absent from school...

Once I woke up in the morning, I feel so god damn tired...==

So told my mom, not gonna go school today..

Then, i was thinking, means today ppda,english society and prefect photography session...

I not able to attend...==

But then prefects and english society...I don't care...

I just care bout UNIT PPDA...
But then I really can't afford to go school...

So forget bout it ba....

But then, I dreamt bout it for two times..== in one morning....

Then around 11am my mom woke me up says that got tcher called me...==but don't know who...

My mom ask me to go school return d camera..but i lazy..

After few minute, i get up and change....i go school to return...and sambil go find ppda tcher...

She say she suppose to ask me whether today or tomorrow take pic..

But see see I din't come...so she postponed to tomorrow..

THen i say , if you want, can exclude me de...its okay with me..

She say its okay...^^

So tomorrow morning taking picha for ppda..

The prefect and english society, i missed it already..but nevermind lar..xD!