D.U.L.L

Sometimes I really miss the ''old me'' -
Where love seems the biggest influence in my life-
But recently, yes I did thought Ifall in love with someone-
But in the matter of fact, it just puppy love or can said as good feelings-
And I realise who d guy I actually love, but it seems like not a big deal to me-
It was in my thoughts for a day or two-
But it evaporates after a short period-
I just feel my life so dull-
With studies and all-
But when I wanna to focus into love-
It gives me d feeling of irritation and annoyances-
It is because of I still haven't found d ''right'' guy or I just phobia to love?