~Reminisces~

20/05
Yesterday ah Wei's baby only have 20% of surviving..
But now he is still okay and the percentage of survival is increasing...
Yesterday I was in shocked and I sick of everything...
Than I SMS Nicholas and say out everything..
I dont think I'll find him anymore..it's useless..
But I don't think I'll involve in a relationship for this moment..
I lurve being single..

21/05
Today in tuition I talked with shu en about Nicholas..
I don't know where this topic comes out...
I like to talk to her about all this matter bcuz she had te almost same experience as me but hers is even more worst than me...
Her ex bf I also know, he cheated on her and have sex with a elder girl and the girl is pregnant..
And now the baby born out edi,
His family gave the girl money and they just want the baby but not the girl ==
back to topic ba, half way talking...
I ungkirkan about Nicholas kneeling down...
She was shocked and she say he really does love you
And I answer yea I think...@@
And I ask now you know why I still deeply in love with him...
She say Kylie, this time you really serious in this...
You really in love, the true meanin of lov not those puppy love or smtg..
She said last time I can just leg go and forget a person after few months, max 4 months...
But now already 7months and I still love him very much...
Then I say sigh.. Yea.. Somehow I wish i'm last time de Kylie...
At least last time I can say as semi playgirl...
I can easily take up love and let go love..
but now I no longer can..
Maybe I mature already or something.
is this a good thing or a bad thing?????
Sigh...after talking all this with her..
I keep o thinking of him and I almost cried tuition...